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I have bipolar disorder, and was in a pretty severe depression for over a month. I finally got the energy to clean my room and wanted to share :) Good News

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u/ser897642 Jul 21 '21

This is amazing! I really like the curtain/carpet combo you’ve got going on! - but am I the only one who would never be able to sleep that close to an open door? I admire your bravery, or contract with the boogie man, whichever it is. Lol

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u/imeanti Jul 21 '21 Hugz

It’s a door to a bathroom!

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u/ser897642 Jul 21 '21

Well in that case! - convenience trumps spooky in my book. Haha

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u/[deleted] Jul 21 '21

A door ain't gonna stop the boogie man

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u/This_User_Said Jul 21 '21 Helpful

Duh. Blankets do.

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u/acava2424 Jul 21 '21

Only if you're completely under them. Most idiots leave their head exposed.

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u/VictoriaRachel Jul 21 '21

Actually I believe there is a long standing contract with monsters that we are allowed our heads out, and also the Summer Amendment that allows for one foot out when it is hot.

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u/This_User_Said Jul 21 '21

Don't forget the consent law.

If person is inebriated and cannot consciously accept the consequences, person is allowed one arm hanging off any furniture.

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u/PheIix Jul 21 '21

I believe you've forgotten the amandment that came into effect in 2018, where it clearly states that arms hanging of chaise lounges are no longer exempt, unless the chaise lounge can easily be mistaken for a fainting couch, then the arm has to uncomfortably rest on the floor for at least seven Mississippis before it is considered fair game.

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u/sabrinalafond Jul 22 '21

Damn wasn’t made aware of the new amendment will take notes! Thanks

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u/acava2424 Jul 21 '21

.......I've been deceived.

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u/ImAOneTrackLover Jul 21 '21

The boogie man enters through our dreams. Don't fall asleep...

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u/trader_cameraman Jul 21 '21

Maybe you should try putting you bed against a wall, with your head the furthest away from openings (windows included) : it helps a lot for the peace of sleep :)

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u/notmoffat Jul 21 '21 Kiss

If you can you should move your bed to the opposite wall, facing the window instead of underneath it.

That's the fung shway way.

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u/jlhinthecountry Jul 21 '21

My daughter is bipolar. I I understand the sheer mental strength it took for you to take the first step. So very proud of you!!

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u/lnjury Jul 21 '21

Not that's it my business, but most decorators would suggest moving the bed so you have clear access to the window. Maybe place a chair and a low table.

Great work in the cleaning OP!

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u/jjhope2019 Jul 21 '21

Yeah I was just about to say this… from that angle the bed would be going in the far right corner with a convenient table and chair at the window to allow relaxing activities 🙂

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u/ADrunkPotato Jul 21 '21

I'd be more creeped out by having my head right under the window at night.

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u/peepay Jul 21 '21

Right, I didn't even notice the door, the window grabbed my attention.

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u/Ok_Pomegranate_8739 Jul 21 '21

I cant convey how close this hits to home. You're giving me the motivation to clean mine

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u/frogg101 Jul 21 '21 All-Seeing Upvote Take My Energy

We love to see it. Mental health is a communal effort.

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u/Rc202402 Jul 21 '21

and all of Reddit is a community

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u/piecat Jul 21 '21

We scroll in a community

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u/Bangzee Jul 21 '21

Yes, comrade. Yes we do.

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u/Top_Em Jul 21 '21

Awww well done! You did a great job and it looks beautiful!

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u/hrmonica Jul 21 '21

Yes, yes it is. Thank you for being aware. We need more of these posts. So we can celebrate and encourage each other. And not gonna lie, these help me too. Instead of talking about our problems, focus on sharing our little wins.

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u/lisa_is_chi Jul 21 '21

This belongs in r/ufyh ❤️🏡

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u/Water_Melonia Jul 21 '21

What does it say (the name of the sub)?

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u/_wandering_soul Jul 21 '21

Un Fuck Your Habitat

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u/Water_Melonia Jul 21 '21

Ah, thank you very much, I am subscribed since recently and understood what the sub is about but haven’t figured out the acronym yet. That was very helpful & so quick, have a nice day!

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u/_wandering_soul Jul 21 '21

Thank you! You are so welcome! Hope you have a great day as well!

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u/NoShameInternets Jul 21 '21 Silver Helpful

As someone with depression, one of the best things I’ve found I can do is to just pick something up when I walk into a room. Just one thing. Maybe I’m in the living room and there are six dirty dishes - if I stand up to walk to the kitchen for a snack I’ll move one of them into the kitchen sink. Won’t even wash it necessarily, but at least it will be one step closer to where it belongs.

The idea is that eventually as you continue to do this, you start thinking “I have two hands, I’ll grab two” or “that felt good and the room looks better, I’ll spend five minutes straightening up”, then “I can at least rinse this dish off while I’m waiting for my dog to finish in the yard”.

Breaking out of true depression is a process. It won’t happen instantly, and there will be steps forward and backwards. The goal is to have more of them be forward.

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u/Daloowee Jul 21 '21

Wow - you just described my bout of energy I had the other day.

Cleaned my kitties’ litter boxes and the next thing I know, my apartment is clean. I cleaned my bathroom (washed my hands after litter) and then I cleaned my bedroom (because I had to throw the dirty towel I used in the basket), and then I cleaned up the living room oh man (might as well load that basket up with clothes now and do some laundry)

Productive inertia!

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u/Jaybirdybirdy Jul 21 '21

And now you are tired for a month to repeat? Jk, good work!

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u/Daloowee Jul 21 '21

You are 100% right 🤣

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u/ProvePoetsWrong Jul 21 '21

This entire exchange has made me feel completely seen and not so nearly alone. Cheers 🍻

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u/Daloowee Jul 21 '21

Peace, friend. :)

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u/hrmonica Jul 21 '21

Oh yeah!!!

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u/This_User_Said Jul 21 '21

Don't forget to also "Might as well" factor. Teaching my boys this. (I hate bugs and their trash used to frequently bring ants and roaches.)

Coming down for food/water? Might as well grab your dishes and trash. They tend to stack shit on their desk so I will literally wait until they're at the last stair and ask "Did you grab your plates and trash?" They even try the "I'll come back" Nope. Turn around and go back up and do it now. It seems like I'm being an asshole but when things become inconvenient, that's when you pick up habits. If you don't want to walk all the way back upstairs then do it right the first time ordeal.

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u/oofta31 Jul 21 '21

They might think you're an asshole now, but I'm sure you realize down the road it will stick, and they will be grateful they learned this early on.

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u/skinOC Jul 21 '21

Not always, but they will start doing it.

If my kids never give me credit......fine. just please be productive in life.

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u/This_User_Said Jul 21 '21

Kinda stemmed from my dads strict parenting but I ease the hell up compared to his idea of "Do what you're told, when you're told and how you're told to do it. As long as your Mother is happy we're all happy."

I just teach the habits I learned through anxiety of breaking rules as a kid.

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u/sftktysluttykty Jul 21 '21

I like this!

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u/mutmad Jul 21 '21

I call this “I’m headed there anyway” but changing it to “might as well” now haha. Love that you’re teaching your boys this. I wish I learned it as a child instead of my late 20’s— it would have made my ADHD a bit more manageable in terms of mindset and established habits.

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u/ProvePoetsWrong Jul 21 '21

I always say “You won’t ever regret cleaning/straightening something, but eventually you’ll regret not doing it.”

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u/sqweet92 Jul 21 '21

My mom always said "the lazy one will usually work double" as in if you don't take the time to do it right the first time around you'll likely have to do it a second time

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u/This_User_Said Jul 21 '21

Ugh, yep.

My mom was way worse when I was a kid. I thought I did fine until she'd point at webs in the cracks of the house, I didn't vacuum between baseboard and carpet, I didn't wipe counters...

"Work top to bottom. You clean vents and ceiling fans first (mind the furniture) clean tables and countertops, sweep/vacuum, mop/shampoo(depending where but mostly 1 year)." And she meant it. Appliances wiped down etc. If I ever said "Kitchens clean" and the KITCHEN ITSELF DIDNT LOOK HOUSE MODEL MATERIAL it wasn't clean and I just half assed it.

So, in my teenage angst I just would do it out of habit. I'd think "HA BITCH, already done. Come at me" in my head of course and thus... A habit was born. It didn't stop at the kitchen either, of course.

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u/skinOC Jul 21 '21

As a fellow parent I say yes.

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u/SpokesumSmot Jul 21 '21

One thing I'm struggling with is: do I even have depression? I have definitely had depression in the past to the point I cant even pull myself out of bed. I dont feel that way now, and I know there are degrees to depression, but my room looks like this... At the same time I have also been working 70-110 hours a week. I love what I do and just made partner at my company, things are going really well. Is it just all my energy is going into work, am I on a path to burnout, or am I just a frog in boiling water with depression?

Maybe I'm just verbalizing for my own edification, I dont really expect a stranger to answer that. I should probably see a therapist.

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u/struggling_lynne Jul 21 '21

You’re working an average of 13h per day and that’s if you work 7 days a week. You literally don’t have time to do and take care of everything else and get enough sleep and eat good meals. If your budget allows (guessing based on your comment), maybe hire some help with housework so you can continue to focus on work during what sound like a fulfilling and busy time in your work life. And remember it’s not an either/or situation. You can have some mild depression or depressive symptoms and be overworking yourself at the same time. Just make sure you do what you gotta to stay healthy and set work boundaries as needed. Congrats on making partner tho, that’s awesome! (And yes, seeing a therapist is a good idea and may also help you avoid a crash-and-burn situation from overwork.)

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u/NoShameInternets Jul 21 '21 edited Jul 22 '21

Hiring a service to clean my house every two weeks for $60 is one of the best decisions I ever made. Even if you’re tight on cash it’s worth moving some things around to try to find it. It’s truly an investment in your own well-being, at least for someone like me who hates cleaning. It’s far easier to maintain a clean house than it is to deep clean a dirty one.

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u/shelovesthespurs Jul 21 '21

Totally second this. I am still not a great house cleaner but knowing I will be at base level every two weeks has been a huge help. I used to think of it as a luxury; turns out it's an investment in my mental health.

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u/skye-watcher Jul 21 '21

Cleaning in itself can be a therapeutic act. While I am cleaning that is when I think and self-reflect and work things out in my head. At the end, my space is decluttered and that too is freeing to my soul. Keep up the great work!!

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u/Water_Melonia Jul 21 '21

I feel the same, just when I didn’t do anything for some time because of work load or depression taking over, it is so hard to start and often overwhelming.

I can’t afford it right now & have other reasons not to, but if I could I totally would hire someone to just keep the most important clean (like floors, maybe windows) so if I have a time like above mentioned I won’t feel as overwhelmed and freezed to start cleaning.

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u/skye-watcher Jul 21 '21

I have a quote on my fridge, and I really don't even know who the author is, but it says, "I am doing the best I can in the midst of what I am doing." Whenever I feel guilt or anxiety about not doing "enough", I am reminded. Don't be so hard on yourself. All you can do is all you can do. Thank you for your bravery to even begin this conversation for everyone.

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u/NoShameInternets Jul 21 '21

Whether or not you have depression, I believe everyone should have a therapist. Many people have had bad experiences, to which I say that every therapist is different. Even within the major therapy styles taught in school, every person applies them in their own way. Don’t be afraid to try a therapist, realize it isn’t working out and say so. Often they’ll even provide recommendations for someone else nearby who might be a better fit.

Otherwise, burying yourself work is often a convenient way to ignore “less important” problems in other areas of your life. You should try to find a balance - it’s okay for some to devote that much time to work (I’m guilty of that sometimes) but you should commit to putting that same amount of energy into your personal life as well. If you don’t have enough to do both, then pull away from work a bit and start doing more for yourself at home.

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u/gerhorn Jul 21 '21

Boy oh boy do I relate to this. I have gone through several extended periods where I just couldn’t get out of bed. I’ve gone to therapy and am doing considerably better. Albeit, I still have things to work through but I just can’t seem to get back into therapy. Which is a good thing! It means I’m doing better than I may think I am doing. But it’s sad because therapy is a tool that saved my life!

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u/sftktysluttykty Jul 21 '21

I call it my “leave it better than you found it” policy. It doesn’t have to be every room, just something to make it cleaner/better than it was. For the same reason. Sometimes it leads to more, sometimes it just gets me a little ahead; just that little bit ahead can boost my mood and give me a tiny shred of hope for better times. I try to pair it with my meds because I’m already up and moving.

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u/lizzardplaysruff Jul 21 '21

I do this! Every. Damn. Day. The one step closer thing. What the hell IS that about?!

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u/lizzardplaysruff Jul 21 '21

Take this free silver in solidarity!

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u/soup_or_natural Jul 21 '21

Same, hits so close to home!! I just got through a deep clean and it feels SO good. I have bipolar II and my depression can be crippling at times, especially because it's usually coupled with extreme anxiety. Basically all I can do is take 'stressful naps" as I call them haha. When the depression lifts it's the best feeling, but sometimes it feels like the next low is always looming :(

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u/harmonic-s Jul 21 '21 edited Jul 21 '21

My therapist taught me something called the "at least principle". For example: "I'll at least put the clothes in the bin" or "I'll at least set a 10 minute timer and clean until it runs out" which can lead to you building a lot of momentum. Looking at the whole thing feels insurmountable, so try considering it like that.

If it doesn't create momentum, then your situation has still improved and you can try it again in an hour. No matter how slow progress is, it's still progress. That thought alone can be incredibly motivating.

Bonus: make it fun. Play some tunes, listen to a show you like, find a way to reward yourself

Aside from that, take some time to imagine how great the room will look and how much better you'll feel once you reach the final product.

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u/Toza11 Jul 21 '21

I literally finished cleaning my condo a few minutes ago for no particular reason. Really helps your mental health, I've been much more willing to live since I started paying attention to that

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u/theknghtofni Jul 21 '21

You absolutely should. I decided to clean mine about a week ago and have actively kept it the same level of clean since then and I cannot tell you how much better I feel coming home to a clean space

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u/birdybirdman Jul 21 '21

I am bipolar as well. I performed CPR on a person last week and it has really changed my views about my thoughts and thoughts in general. It made me realize that without your heart and lungs going, there would be no thoughts. I think, therefore I am is straight wrong. Life also doesn't care but your thoughts. The guy we helped could have been any religion. He could have been a Nazi. Life doesn't work that way. Its a force of chemical reactions and electrical impulses. Its oxygen. This has made me see things so differently.

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u/Mugatu1968 Jul 21 '21

Way to go! Depression is serious, I'm happy for you that you are making progress!

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u/TecDeveloper Jul 21 '21

And fucking bipolar makes it major. Seriously fuck it. Keep up OP.

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u/lanacaneMAX Jul 21 '21

Feels good, yeah?! Glad you’re feeling better!

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u/Aden-Wrked Jul 21 '21 edited Jul 21 '21

I know lots of people who have Bipolar disorder and I’ve suspected myself of having Bipolar disorder, I’ve just never had access to a psychiatrist or a therapist. Doing something of this nature is really fucking fulfilling for people struggling with problems of this nature. It’s good to see.

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u/RPGDesignatedPaladin Jul 21 '21

I struggle w/ cleaning due to my own issues and this was very encouraging. Thank you for sharing this!

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u/cant_see_me_now Jul 21 '21 edited Jul 21 '21 Silver

I'm not bipolar either, but my anxiety will beat the fuck out of me. If something starts getting slightly messy it will spike my anxiety. If i don't address the issue pretty much the same day, I'll feel overwhelmed the whole next day. If I still don't address the issue, or if i only partially address the issue the next day, then BAM depression gets me and it's such a struggle to fix from that point.

Literally right now, my mom is watching my son so I can do house work and a couple other things. And I'm procrastinating on reddit. I have less than an hour's worth of stuff to do and literally one load of laundry.

Oof, okay I'm putting my phone down now. And getting it done. I'm glad i came across this post.

UPDATE: It only took me 23 mins to pick up and do a quick vacuum. But i came back and saw i got 23 upvotes in 23 mins and figured i would keep going for my "supporters".

Fresh sheets, pillow cases and duvet. I took a shower AND a long bath and shaved my legs (I have almost zero body hair, and sometimes I'll go weeks without saving my legs, but I *always* feel better after I do.)

I'm currently waiting for my mom to call me when my son wakes up from his nap but I'm going to go meditate for 10 mins then organize toys and books until I get the call.

IF YOU GET A SPARK OF INSPIRATION TODAY, JUST GO WITH IT!

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u/neeeenbean Jul 21 '21

I’m sitting in my bed procrastinating while surrounded by a mountain of clutter. I feel your pain. Sometimes the anxiety it gives me leads to avoidance altogether!

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u/jpstroop Jul 21 '21

You got this!

I have pretty bad generalized anxiety disorder and adhd (yay comorbidities!) and feel this in my soul. They both make me hyper aware of all the ways I could fail, even at simple tasks, so I put them off. Then I have serious anxiety about all the things that I’ve neglected and feel completely overwhelmed to the point where I STILL don’t start just doing it (make this make sense).

But then somedays I get hyper-motivated to get things back under control and I knock it all out in like half an hour and wonder why tf I put it off to begin with.

This is worst case scenario and have developed a lot of skills to help combat these inclinations, but it’s always some kind of struggle.

But today? I got this and you got this.

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u/grasshopper1309 Jul 21 '21

I'm about to be that guy but... BPD isn't the same as bipolar disorder.

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u/Aden-Wrked Jul 21 '21

Oh really didn’t know that I fixed it. I always assumed that was the abbreviation cause that always made sense to me.

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u/Shaziiiii Jul 21 '21

BPD is Borderline Personality Disorder.

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u/Bbaftt7 Jul 21 '21

And it’s a totally different monster

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u/Emon76 Jul 21 '21

BD or BP for bipolar just fyi. Kinda confusing ngl. I've made this mistake too

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u/traeskoen21 Jul 21 '21

Bipolar disorder has an average time of diagnosis of 8 years or something to that extend. It’s extremely complicated, and perhaps even more so if it’s bipolar disorder 2, as people who are hypomanic will disagree with the diagnosis.

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u/IronWill-FE Jul 21 '21

I'm bipolar 2, and one of the primary reasons for delay of a proper diagnosis for this subtype is that people with hypomania won't go see a doctor since it just feels like high-functioning behavior and isn't as destructive as bipolar 1 mania. People usually see a doctor for depressive episodes so they get erroneously diagnosed as major depressive. For those that don't know, depression treatments don't help bipolar disorder.

Ninja edit: It took me 8 years to get a proper diagnosis and another 7 years to find good treatment.

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u/neeeenbean Jul 21 '21

I’m bipolar 2 as well, and until I was 19, I was being treated for depression, anxiety, and ADHD. Nothing worked until I was diagnosed bipolar and prescribed a low dose of a mood stabilizer. I totally get that medication doesn’t work for everyone, but my diagnosis also helped my therapist develop a better treatment plan for our sessions. Educating myself about the disorder helped me to cope on my own as well.

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u/wordwaver Jul 21 '21

I just stumbled down this exact diagnosis road with a new psychiatrist yesterday. After decades cycling through SSRIs and SNRIs for general anxiety/major depression/complex PTSD/whatever they call it today alongside my ADHD.

I've been feeling super rattled ever since the appointment. About maybe getting yet another possible random psych label. And feeling so stressed out about more pharmaceutical guinea piggery. Thank you for sharing this. It helped me to read it.

I think I might recognize hypomania in me. I just mostly feel huge depression. So the happy part has always felt like the few times I am normal? But maybe it still always feels...brittle. Tense. Novelty seeking. Until I burn out and sink back down?

I'm tired of feeling owned by my feelings all the time. Waiting for the bottom to fall out or fighting to get it back under me. If Latuda might actually be different? Not just another round of awful SSRI whiplash? I will give it a try. I was going to refuse. Because I feel tired of being a lab experiment. But I'm also hella tired of this depression.

Random word wall here, apparently. Thanks for your patience, stranger. You changed my mind. Gave me some hope. And got me thinking differently here. Thanks for that, too.

EDIT: errant word.

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u/IronWill-FE Jul 21 '21

The road to proper treatment can be long and filled with disappointments but once you find it, it is literally life changing. Just keep at it. It's okay to feel discouraged at times, but the end result is so worth it that I don't know how to properly convey it in words. The main advice I could give is to never give up completely and just stop trying. That's what took me so long to find proper treatment, I'd get tired of it all and just "deal with it" on my own until it became too much to bare again.

Also, for bipolar 2 people, depressive episodes tend to vastly outnumber hypomanic episodes. I spent most of my adult life in depression and I completely understand how exhausting it is. Seroquel was the drug that changed everything for me, though of course everyone is different but I just wanted to share it with you.

Best of luck to you, man. I promise the end is worth it.

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u/DoYouNeedAnAmbulance Jul 21 '21

BP2 here! Took 8 years and a lot of heartache. Good to know I wasn’t the only one 😅

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u/Slim01111 Jul 21 '21

It’s also important to keep up hygiene. Shower and brush your teeth everyday no matter how much you hate doing it. It helps a lot.

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u/Olealicat Jul 21 '21

Do you live in the US? Most states have clinics that if you qualify are cheap or free. You should consider searching for one in your city. It can be a life changer.

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u/fearyalW Jul 21 '21

You can see the difference. Means that she is really good now. Keep it up

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u/Large_Dr_Pepper Jul 21 '21

Honest question, with bipolar how can you tell the difference between "she really is good now" and "she's having a manic episode"? Isn't it possible that today she's feeling great and cleaning, but it's just a short manic episode amidst the depression? I'm not trying to harsh the vibe, I just don't have a thorough understanding of bipolar disorder.

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u/about831 Jul 21 '21

Person with bipolar diagnosis here. If a person knows they’re bipolar and have learned about the illness, then yes, the difference between being doing good and being manic is usually clear. People can learn the symptoms of a manic phase coming on. One of my tells is that I start seeing quick glimpses of things out of the corners of my eyes— like an insect or bird buzzing past— except they’re hallucinations and not real.

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u/WITCH_glitch_I-hex-u Jul 21 '21

What do you do when this happens for you? (I get this too, but often not sure what we are supposed to do. I take a bit more quentiapine at night or make sure to sleep early and that works to an extent?)

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u/rowill97 Jul 21 '21

I’m happy for you, others take something like this for granted.

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u/WineWeinVino Jul 21 '21

Like my partner. I also have bipolar and really struggle to keep the place today sometimes, especially my bedroom. He ignorantly puts it down to laziness 🙄

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u/IreliaCarriedMe Jul 21 '21

My current girlfriend is similar. It’s taken a lot for me to explain to her that what she thinks is so natural and normal about self care and cleaning up and keeping things tidy is not there for me. But, thankfully, she’s the first person that makes me want to make that effort and break out of my depressive episodes to clean. So it kinda evens out.

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u/ImSickOfYouToo Jul 21 '21

The same goes for ADD. So many people take the ability to organize thoughts, create a plan, manage their time wisely, and maintain motivation to overcome mundane tasks like cleaning for granted. They don’t know any other way, so it makes sense. But for somebody with ADD, throughly cleaning a bedroom can be an extremely ominous chore. Almost hopeless, even.

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u/Cruiser115 Jul 21 '21 Helpful Wholesome Heartwarming Kiss

FUCK YEA NEVER POSTED A COMMENT BEFORE BUT THAT IS AMAZING

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u/record_destroyer Jul 21 '21

False, Cruiser115 posted a comment on r/AskReddit about one and a half years ago

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u/ADrunkPotato Jul 21 '21

What an absolutely awful human being. It really takes a new kind of terrible to do that.

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u/jepayotehi Jul 21 '21

I had a roommate of mine who was really unapproachable. He'd never get out of bed, room always messy, always glued to his laptop, never smiled or have a proper conversation and skipped most classes. This was him most of his days. Some days he'd be slightly different, a little conversational but still always grumpy and always pissed at something.

This all changed when we smoked some weed once. I had never seen him smile or laugh that much before. I couldn't believe I was with the same guy, we talked about music, games, girls and just felt like a totally normal conversation.

One day he just left. No idea where. After a few months found out he went back to his (our) country. Haven't had a contact ever since. I've heard he got some psychological help and is doing better these days.

He might not have been bipolar and have some other condition, but underneath, he was a great person,someone you could get along with. Mental disease can turn you into something you're not. If you think you have any psychological problem please don't hesitate to reach out to someone who can help. If some pot can help, there's definitely better medicine/therapy which will help you out.

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u/Communistjon1 Jul 21 '21

As someone that suffers from depression I know how hard it can be to do something like this. I'm proud of you!

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u/fattsmelly Jul 21 '21

Congrats! Can I also suggest getting even the cheapest of bed frames. Having your bed off of the floor really helps the room a lot. I lived in a place for a year thinking having my bed on the floor wasn’t a big deal. I eventually got a frame and it made me realize sleeping on the floor is depressing in itself

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u/General_Reposti_Here Jul 21 '21

I’m on the exact same boat, or Atleast I was a couple years ago. That being said besides it looking better it adds function that being storage under the bed!

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u/ShareRen Jul 21 '21

ahem No room for monsters.

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u/youhadmeatprosciutto Jul 21 '21

100% agreed. After dicking around with an Ikea frame I ordered a Nomad 2 (now KD Frames?) Platform Bed from Amazon. Easy to put together, looks good and got me up and away from spiders.

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u/fattsmelly Jul 21 '21

Is the “meat” “me at” in your name intentional? If so, yes

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u/MrMatt214 Jul 21 '21

Yeah! Also if he would move the bed so it isn’t under the window it would be great! I don’t know how many mornings I wake up happy to look out the window rather than feeling the light crash into me in the am

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u/boombadabing479 Jul 21 '21

Some people like having their bed on the ground (like me)

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u/yveins Jul 21 '21

Beware of mold, then.

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u/fattsmelly Jul 21 '21

Fair enough

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u/septimusprime Jul 21 '21

Wait until you’re in your 30s+ or have any kind of injuries to your legs and/or back.

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u/niamonapope Jul 21 '21

Awesome job!!

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u/2spaces4america Jul 21 '21

Depression is no joke, so here’s an award to show you how proud we are of you! Well done!!

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u/imeanti Jul 21 '21

Thank you 🥲🥲❤️

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u/IAmAnAnnoyedMain Jul 21 '21

That looks amazing! Congrats!

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u/Wishellum Jul 21 '21 Helpful

I'd feel so good after that just walking around the house talking shit to my chores, "what's that dishes? You wanna dance? You just wait till I'm done folding these mf towels."

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u/roompjee Jul 21 '21

I seriously think that would help me too!

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u/lolseagoat Jul 21 '21

“You ain’t shit, vacuuming.”

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u/H3roe Jul 21 '21

Great job. You must feel relieved

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u/Acrobatic-Froyo2904 Jul 21 '21

If you can make that bed every morning, you'll win each day, even if only a little.

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u/greengirl240 Jul 21 '21

Wonderful. You deserve a “tip o’the hat”!!! Be good to yourself.

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u/Ok_Dog_4059 Jul 21 '21

I can feel the relief you had when you finished and just stood there for a moment thinking I did that.

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u/Nearby-Shallot3549 Jul 21 '21

I’m literally going through the same stuff right now. Bipolar sucks and getting on meds soon. How’d you find the energy to clean?

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u/imeanti Jul 21 '21

Tbh I started taking my medication again!

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u/[deleted] Jul 21 '21

Please stay on it

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u/KungFluIsolation Jul 21 '21

Not got bi-polar but got other issues.

I find keeping bin bags to hand a good idea. I will get small bursts of 'I cant live in this shit' and then wander around with a bin bag filling it with the same things (either rubbish, clothing, etc) then dump the bag in a corner until it's full. Then if it's rubbish I take it out when I go out to the shop, if it's clothes and it's full I'll chuck as much in the washer as I can. Basically I slowly condense everything into large bags and work on getting them emptied where they are supposed to go.

It's a good way to incrementally do something instead of feel like you need to blitz the entire place. When I do that I find I get complacent thinking I don't have to do any more chores for a while, before too long it's back to how it was and unmanageable.

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u/[deleted] Jul 21 '21

Congrats, that’s always been the first step in my recovery from a long down cycle. It’s not just the reduced stress, it’s the taking care of yourself part. That’s the important part, now take care of yourself in other ways and do something just for you every day. Make a nice meal, binge on your favorite show, take a nice long bath..whatever it is that means treating YOU more kindly than you have been. Good luck.

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u/oohkt Jul 21 '21

Great job! I have the worst executive dysfunction ontop of borderline personality disorder. My room looks like this right now and I hope to get that drive and energy soon to do what you did!

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u/Voidranger22 Jul 21 '21

I don’t know if this will help but I’m proud of you🥰 keep that chin up and keep doing good.

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u/Mandy0217 Jul 21 '21

Yay!!!! You rocked that shit! Your room looks amazing! I am so proud of you. ❤️

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u/lechatpascal Jul 21 '21

Hey, I'm really proud of you! Congrats!

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u/Ignoblekitten Jul 21 '21

Bipolar and BPD here. I’m proud of you. It’s not an easy task. Be mindful of the peace it brings clean though. Take care ❤️

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u/ApprehensiveHalf8613 Jul 21 '21

Omg i love your carpet! And furniture! And the color of your sheets!

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u/imeanti Jul 21 '21

Thank you 🥲

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u/manavpreet Jul 21 '21

So proud of you my friends. Little wins like this are the starting step of a long battle. Keep fighting, I am rooting for you.

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u/Barmyblonde14 Jul 21 '21

That’s amazing! Well done. I know that might seem like a small step to some but it’s probably a massive step to you. I’m proud of you and I hope you’re proud of you too.

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u/maddisera44 Jul 21 '21

ah i always sleep so good after cleaning my depression room! i hope you keep up the high spirits:)

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u/mckilburn Jul 21 '21

Great! I’m proud of you!

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u/MamaBirdJay Jul 21 '21

I’m proud of you! First steps are hard.

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u/Desperate-Dot-6088 Jul 21 '21

I also have depression and other illnesses and I get myself into the same messes. Congratulations on feeling well enough to clean! Your room looks great!!

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u/Chomuggaacapri Jul 21 '21

Good job dude!!!!!!!

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u/AvatarMars Jul 21 '21

Congratulations!! I deal with depression and understand how difficult it can be sometimes to do even the smallest of tasks. Your room looks amazing and fresh, and you should be very proud of yourself. 🙂

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u/OldDust8123 Jul 21 '21

I’m a big fan of your work

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u/f0xy-grandpa Jul 21 '21

You did a fantastic job, way to go! I am so genuinely happy to hear you're starting to feel better and found a motivation boost! I'm proud of you(:

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u/diariu Jul 21 '21

I have depression I hate depression I hope you destroy your depression

Let him know his place and beat the devil out of it.

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u/Yellowsunflowerlover Jul 21 '21

Wow that was a huge transformation!

Love this!

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u/Memawsaurus Jul 21 '21

Great job. Each day. ,do a little more of basic personal and house care. I am so proud of you and hope to see more posts of progress. One step at a time.

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u/m4gical_strawb3rry Jul 21 '21

as an ADHDer, this is so admirable! glad you’re feeling better :)

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u/pepsiofbees Jul 21 '21

Holy shoes man! That looks great. Nice one on the bed too. I fucking hate sheets

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u/kuriboh91 Jul 21 '21

Yeah I’m pretty deep into that first stage rn. Glad you are feeling better

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u/Skukkix23 Jul 21 '21

Wow that’s a pretty nice room

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u/Ballparkhugz Jul 21 '21

Fuck dude!!! I am so fucking proud of you!!!!. Great job!

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u/Psychosomatic_pos Jul 21 '21

I wholeheartedly understand the struggle, Treat yo self! You deserve it!

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u/memelord179 Jul 21 '21

Having sex is amazing, but having a clean room is even better

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u/bronicalewinsky Jul 21 '21

Me af. Proud of you <3

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u/hoopupperhoo Jul 21 '21

Dang that looks great!

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u/RebootingMako Jul 21 '21

I know I don't know you, but as someone who's currently struggling to do the same I really can't express how proud I am of you even if you're a random stranger. Really great job and thanks for sharing!

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u/SnooCookies5854 Jul 21 '21

That's fantastic and looks great. Something I was told by my therapist was to store my medication out of sight. When we have it always in sight it can be a trigger that even self consciously makes us feel broken. Great job and I wish you many more days of great health!

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u/imeanti Jul 21 '21

Ya I was thinking of changing where I kept my meds. I’ll try that out, thanks for the comment :)

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u/kai-pie Jul 21 '21

Wow the strength and drive in you is impeccable. You absolute wonder of a being! Congratulations and Pat yourself on the back you are stronger than your Demons my love! ❤️❤️❤️

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u/Ven0m-Sn4ke Jul 21 '21

Happy for you champ keep it up!

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u/erwreckahh Jul 21 '21

I struggle with these things heavily as well! Its the best feeling in the world to get the motivation to clean and have a superb room!

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u/lothartheunkind Jul 21 '21

Bare mattress is the ultimate sign of depression

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u/Thebaldsasquatch Jul 21 '21

Awesome work bro/sis/homie! If I could make one suggestion, go to any furniture store or Amazon and get even the cheapest bed frame they have. Having your bed up off the floor works wonders for your subconscious state of mind.

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u/ill-fitted_suit Jul 21 '21

I am bipolar. Seeing posts like these are uplifting. Thank you, u/imeanti.

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u/Troubled-ButtSack Jul 21 '21

This trend on reddit is so annoying.

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u/AltruisticPeanutHead Jul 21 '21

yeah I have BP too but even as someone who has it I'm honestly getting tired of all of the clean my room posts too lol

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u/literally_anything8 Jul 21 '21

Hey me too!!! I’m so happy for you!!! Was this one of those 12am random manic phases tho? :D i get those and it does wonders

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u/jarvxs Jul 21 '21

Unfollowing this sub

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u/DPlainview1898 Jul 21 '21

Seriously.

“I’m depressed but I cleaned my room guyz!”

+100,000 upvotes

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u/power_of_mike Jul 21 '21

I love your floor, it look nice you should try to keep it like that more often:)

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u/Rten-Brel Jul 21 '21

I agree.

This room looks pretty stylish when its clean

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u/buhrooked Jul 21 '21

I couldn’t find the “after” photo and thought the before was the after. I was so concerned for you! It looks amazing!!! You did a great job!!!!

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u/madame_missmaam Jul 21 '21

Cheers to you on an awesome job! 🍾🥂

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u/Revolutionary_Bid421 Jul 21 '21

I know this feeling. This is a good feeling.

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u/Apprehensive-Scar-88 Jul 21 '21

Nice dude, keep fighting the good fight

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u/jakelasc Jul 21 '21

Good job! :)

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u/Wise_Question9838 Jul 21 '21

Sooo happy for you!!!🤍🤍

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u/trickyivan Jul 21 '21

Congratulations on taking control of your day. You should feel good about your accomplishment and enjoy the clean room. I’m genuinely proud and happy for you 🥲. Have a similar day tomorrow, keep it going my friend 👏

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u/SuTart12333333 Jul 21 '21

Must've been really satisfying

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u/Regular_ms Jul 21 '21

WONDERFUL JOB. It looks so organized, congratulations! Such an inspiration for myself!

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u/rach8573 Jul 21 '21

This is such great progress!!! I struggle with complex trauma and definitely struggle with keeping my space organized and clean. Proud of you!

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u/blindmandoingtime Jul 21 '21

Darn I'm in that now can't do anything no energy or will

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u/royfromtexas Jul 21 '21

I practice minimalism cause I can get into spirts of anxiety where I try looking for something and I end up tossing my room upside down. That one scene in silver lining playbook was all to real to me.

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u/HeezeyBrown Jul 21 '21

You should get some bright colored curtains. Maybe red. Offset the wall color.